I’m so sorry
I was in bad emotion
when I realized you’ve been flown to my river
and then drowning deep
without even caught the bank of my heart.
It wasn’t all my faults at that time,
you gave me a light that I thought I might stay there
just for a while.
You gave me everything that I need
when I broken my heart to somebody else.
I’ve been blinded by my own obsession
to be completely well but I’m being oblivious.
The pain came last
when I felt you put a net of ignorance
and now you found somebody else new
totally sky and earth from me.
Well I guess you deserved to be happy.
I’d like to send regards to her,
it would be love having talk with her some other time.

It was the first march of 1999,
you’ve been attracted me
with your cat eyes and dangerous smile,
And then you turned my world upside down ever since.
My “Moonlight” that what you called me for you to be my “Night”.
I can feel the warm feeling
that surrounding me when you’re around.
We were young
and I realized I’ve been falling in love.
One night you made me out of the blue by the word you said,
“We are still young and there are so many things out there that yet we haven’t seen”,
it was the mighty sentence from you
that awake me from my trance for I’ve been crushed on you.
A short story of love has been entered to my memory’s book

Berjalan telanjang kaki di pantaimu
Berbicara dengan desir angin dan riak gelombang yang menyentuh kaki
Mencoba untuk diam sejenak dan mendengarkan hatiku bicara
Kepada bau air laut yang membuka pintu imajinasiku
Akan hadirmu yang berjalan disisiku sambil tersenyum
Memandangku dengan penuh arti

Ingatanku tak pernah lepas
Akan peristiwa–peristiwa yang telah terjadi
Ketika semua terasa begitu jelas
Dan dekat
Tidak ada yang lain
Hanya rasa itu
Kenangan–kenangan itu
Hanya menjadi kenangan
Hanya kenangan buatmu
Dan aku terlipat didalamnya

Waktu berjalan
Kamu melangkah
Dan aku membeku di antara waktu
Melihatmu berlalu tanpa menoleh
Dan bertanya ataupun tersenyum seperti dulu
Waktu membekukanku

Di pantai ini,
Aku berjalan sendiri

Aku telah berjalan di sepanjang jalan yang ramai ini
berharap ada wajah orang-orang yang kukenal di ingatanku
namun tak satupun menunjukkan rasa yang selama ini kucari

berapa lama lagi kumenatap dan memandang ke tepi jalan?
Mungkin sesuatu ada disana dan memberiku petunjuk
tak satupun cahaya yang menerangi di setiap sudut kota
tuk membuatku dapat melihat
dimana aku berdiri sekarang ini

berapa lama lagi aku tetap membuka lebar pendengaranku?
Tuk menangkap setiap suara yang akan membuatku tersadar
kalo waktunya kan tiba
memberikan gambaran yang terbaik di mataku

berapa lama lagi aku harus tetap menatap jalanan?
Berharap akan ada seseorang disana
memandangku dan memberiku
senyum yang murni
membebaskanku dari kesedihan ini
berapa lama lagi waktu itu akan datang?

10 A.M.
It was too cold, went outside the lodging house
but the sun shine bright
the heat slowly crawling and embraced into my skin
fresh of the plants being kissed by dews
made me felt so good
like I'm falling in love
but that view wasn't enough, so I went upstair
watched the blue sky and the wind coming breeze
God, I wish I'm in this moment forever
I can even hear the wind whispered in my ears
and the leaves dancing in their branches
my eyes open wide never loose the chance
to keep the moment in my mind
it was the day that I had on in my lodging house somewhere in march

*Malang

Among the raindrops
my mind roaming the chill of the night
looking for the views that surely appear
knock my consciousness

barely can't make me awake
and I just like to be this wandering
in night's dream
just to see you b4 you go to sleep
show me your smile
and just want to know that everything is ok

I like this way
accompanied by the wind and frozen air
standing between the dream and consciousness
just want to see your face
and give you a kiss goodnight
b4 you go to sleep

I remember
friend told me that
rain bring a news from a far
news that sent away all the grieving and sadness
news that make u smile

tonite, this night is raining
and I just listen to the raindrops
that slowly knocking on my rooftop
dancing on the surfaces

just like eager and want to see their old friends
the raindrops in rush
coming down and touch the ground

I remember
a friend told me
about the wet ground
that spread the smell of the rain
swept away all the sadness
and bring the memory of the past
just for a memory

and tonite, this night is raining
i hope u just feel happy
as the raindrops hug and kissing the ground

As a mark
that I've been there
in the time when I was so lost in love
I wrote a name in the sky
let the wind swept it away
let the clouds grab it away
their send it to the sun
wherever she just happy for it

Malam ini aku bersama kamu
duduk berdiam diteras rumah mendengarkan angin dan dedaunan
kamu dengan secangkir ovaltine dingin
aku dengan nescafe original
kamu bilang, kamu ingin melihat malam berjalan menemui pagi

malam ini aku bersama kamu
menemanimu duduk d sebuah bangku kayu
dikelilingi oleh pohon-pohon pinus yang menjulang tinggi
kamu bilang, kamu ingin menghitung bintang
yang malam sebelumnya kamu tandai dengan senyum dan binar matamu

malam ini aku bersama kamu
menemani kamu selepas sore yang penat
berjalan dibawah naungan lampu taman kota
langit begitu biru dan bintang-bintang tetap sama
dengan tanda yang kamu sematkan dikemilaunya

malam ini aku bersama kamu

I cannot deny, when my heart jump high in cheer
catches your voice over the phone
and you're greeting me,
"how've you been?"
"i just want to hear your voice and missing you"
i try to hide the sense that want to go out throuh the mind
i don't want you to know the bubble inside
just like want to say something like i miss you

with your honest and open sense
you just split it out of all you want to say
i just clearly feel tha you are missing me too much

over the phone,
i just try to overcome what has bubbling inside
still your voice roaming through my heart
just like never stop to try to looking
of what's on my heart too

"i do really miss you"
over and over again your voice goes out
just like big wave swept all my defenses
but still, i don't want to say something stupid like i miss you too

Driving on the highway
with an empty backseat and a frozen front rear glasses
heading to the south

for the lonely road is still stretch ahead
reveal an awkward and anxious mind
coz' a heart crying in chilled
being grabbed and possessed by the stillness of the night

there'll be songs that make you cry
for the broken vow that worn by the aging time
echoes it voice at the top of the cliffs, in the silent air
hailing for the heart that nothing forsake
no tears left, only the blackness of the night
accompany you along the way

and dust blowing in the air
swallowed by the darkness
wish for the dawn to smile and give a little bit cheers
for an empty heart shaped sea

there'll be songs that make you cry
still, you're driving on the highway
with an empty backseat and a frozen front rear glasses
heading to the south