You came to save me when I needed a wide shoulder to cry on
You gave me the cheers when the loneliness came
I never paid attention before when I felt my days of love with someone else,
the one who broke my heart into pieces
You the one who picked up piece by piece the scattered heart I have
For the length time, I never questioned the truth of your mind cos’ I’m too busy with my own sorrow
Still I feel the wounded when my heart hurt and I neglected you around
But you’re so busy cure me nothing in return

Till today 2 years ago
I should asked you to come to my world for the cares that you gave me
I should placed you inside my heart for the feeling that you’ve shown me
I never thought now the feeling inside me struggle want to know, against this sense of yours
For all the time I ain’t knowing you to be

You took me to the wide world out there
Gave me a power not to be drowning too deep in sorrow
For the time I wasted with the one who took my heart
So hard to get myself conscious again
But you the one who bring back my trust to reality
And took me the one above of all
Still I ain’t realize the precious things I’ve got is not far for me

Till today 2 years ago
I should gave a place beneath the heart for you that always shine the love of me
I should looked near me for the ever saviour that standing for me
not looking far for the one who loosing my feeling away
I should realized that day, today 2 years ago for my foolishness, letting go something else who to be my really ever saviour
Forgive me for the time I ain’t knowing you to be
Right there beneath my heart

Here she goes
another savior that entered my life,
I didn’t know who’s being saved here.
I’ve been broken wings
and you came
offering me to seize the air together.

We realized
this was the best way for us
to stayed alive from fading sense,
that’s our own enemy.
You’ve been searching of what life will take you
and I’m welcoming the life that flew me.
And that such a weird combination between us,
but it goes well so far.
We could get more than this,
grow our sense and fill each other.
We’ve been emerging the truth
yet open the hearth

but we don’t have courage
to make ourselves wake up at will.
Our feeling of compassion
cannot heal the ambivalent we’ve got.
We’ve been drifting away since now,
nowhere to point.

It took so long to get you out of my mind,
I always staying away from you
but why I always hanging on to every words you say.
It was a great story that we ever revealed
in our life and you’ve been totally unpredictable.
I couldn’t even take a deep breath to realized
what has been possesed me
and you already there ruined my beyond ordinary life.
You’re the devil along my days,
so easy for me to say fuck off
in the time I give my hand to you to hold on.
And I am the devil for my own skin
I didn’t even know who I am
yet it made me want to scream so loud.

And that’s it,
I’ve been totally lost my control,
it just like yesterday still I remember
the echo when my hand hit the wall.
It didn’t hurt me at all not when you hurt yourself.
‘Coz the impact did made me hell of shock.
Thanks for myself to flinch from you anyway.

I flattered that you offered me a gracious connection.
You were fine and absolutely well off.
I like you a lot when you accomplished
the messy things with your fingertip.
I always be your queen in everything
but you never let me walk with bare foot.
You’ve been so perfect in a whole wax,

in fact
I’m too much perfect ten for you
that you didn’t allow a single mistake
or a spot that stick in my skin.
It was six months of my own battle
and I have already loosing my own personality
for I stayed in my illusive bliss.
Thanks for giving me a place in your dungeon
but I have to move on.
I don’t want to miss a thing,
since I stayed with you all the world was seized up.

I’m so sorry
I was in bad emotion
when I realized you’ve been flown to my river
and then drowning deep
without even caught the bank of my heart.
It wasn’t all my faults at that time,
you gave me a light that I thought I might stay there
just for a while.
You gave me everything that I need
when I broken my heart to somebody else.
I’ve been blinded by my own obsession
to be completely well but I’m being oblivious.
The pain came last
when I felt you put a net of ignorance
and now you found somebody else new
totally sky and earth from me.
Well I guess you deserved to be happy.
I’d like to send regards to her,
it would be love having talk with her some other time.

It was the first march of 1999,
you’ve been attracted me
with your cat eyes and dangerous smile,
And then you turned my world upside down ever since.
My “Moonlight” that what you called me for you to be my “Night”.
I can feel the warm feeling
that surrounding me when you’re around.
We were young
and I realized I’ve been falling in love.
One night you made me out of the blue by the word you said,
“We are still young and there are so many things out there that yet we haven’t seen”,
it was the mighty sentence from you
that awake me from my trance for I’ve been crushed on you.
A short story of love has been entered to my memory’s book

Berjalan telanjang kaki di pantaimu
Berbicara dengan desir angin dan riak gelombang yang menyentuh kaki
Mencoba untuk diam sejenak dan mendengarkan hatiku bicara
Kepada bau air laut yang membuka pintu imajinasiku
Akan hadirmu yang berjalan disisiku sambil tersenyum
Memandangku dengan penuh arti

Ingatanku tak pernah lepas
Akan peristiwa–peristiwa yang telah terjadi
Ketika semua terasa begitu jelas
Dan dekat
Tidak ada yang lain
Hanya rasa itu
Kenangan–kenangan itu
Hanya menjadi kenangan
Hanya kenangan buatmu
Dan aku terlipat didalamnya

Waktu berjalan
Kamu melangkah
Dan aku membeku di antara waktu
Melihatmu berlalu tanpa menoleh
Dan bertanya ataupun tersenyum seperti dulu
Waktu membekukanku

Di pantai ini,
Aku berjalan sendiri

Aku telah berjalan di sepanjang jalan yang ramai ini
berharap ada wajah orang-orang yang kukenal di ingatanku
namun tak satupun menunjukkan rasa yang selama ini kucari

berapa lama lagi kumenatap dan memandang ke tepi jalan?
Mungkin sesuatu ada disana dan memberiku petunjuk
tak satupun cahaya yang menerangi di setiap sudut kota
tuk membuatku dapat melihat
dimana aku berdiri sekarang ini

berapa lama lagi aku tetap membuka lebar pendengaranku?
Tuk menangkap setiap suara yang akan membuatku tersadar
kalo waktunya kan tiba
memberikan gambaran yang terbaik di mataku

berapa lama lagi aku harus tetap menatap jalanan?
Berharap akan ada seseorang disana
memandangku dan memberiku
senyum yang murni
membebaskanku dari kesedihan ini
berapa lama lagi waktu itu akan datang?

10 A.M.
It was too cold, went outside the lodging house
but the sun shine bright
the heat slowly crawling and embraced into my skin
fresh of the plants being kissed by dews
made me felt so good
like I'm falling in love
but that view wasn't enough, so I went upstair
watched the blue sky and the wind coming breeze
God, I wish I'm in this moment forever
I can even hear the wind whispered in my ears
and the leaves dancing in their branches
my eyes open wide never loose the chance
to keep the moment in my mind
it was the day that I had on in my lodging house somewhere in march

*Malang

Among the raindrops
my mind roaming the chill of the night
looking for the views that surely appear
knock my consciousness

barely can't make me awake
and I just like to be this wandering
in night's dream
just to see you b4 you go to sleep
show me your smile
and just want to know that everything is ok

I like this way
accompanied by the wind and frozen air
standing between the dream and consciousness
just want to see your face
and give you a kiss goodnight
b4 you go to sleep

I remember
friend told me that
rain bring a news from a far
news that sent away all the grieving and sadness
news that make u smile

tonite, this night is raining
and I just listen to the raindrops
that slowly knocking on my rooftop
dancing on the surfaces

just like eager and want to see their old friends
the raindrops in rush
coming down and touch the ground

I remember
a friend told me
about the wet ground
that spread the smell of the rain
swept away all the sadness
and bring the memory of the past
just for a memory

and tonite, this night is raining
i hope u just feel happy
as the raindrops hug and kissing the ground