Right now, I just want to write
All my emotion goes freely through my fingers
Explore every corner of my dungeon
Seal it up, every words so very true
Reveals every senses that hide inside
All I want is just write

Everytime when I can feel all my feeling comes up clearly
Speak up through my vessels and every bubble in my blood
Showing the taste of higher in the top of my consciousness
All I want is just write

I might not know, what I’m gonna to show
And I will never stop to explore of what inside me
Digging the deepest sense in the heart
Talking about freedom
Just free and write

I never shock like the way I am now
Found myself never have all I want along my days
Being so happy, looking the days so wonderful
But it just only an illusive bliss, that getting stronger replace my thought of reality
There is one thing for sure that always be a barrier in this mind
I just try to let go of it, I don’t want to get stuck in this place
Cos’ you are the barrier for me
Just go away, stay away
It makes me relieve after all the time I have to carry you on my back

I saw you broken wings, failed facing this lovely life
And who the hell am I, always take care of your shit
Cos’ I know and you know that you completely find without me standing here near
I just try to let go of it, I don’t want to get into it, the blocks that you make
Cos’ you are the barrier for me
Just go away, stay away
It makes me feel glad after all the time I have to hold on to you

There are so many places out there you can put your net on it
There are so many rooms out there you can stay in
No way for me I have to take you there again

Where do you take me?
Right now I’m very tired for all day long I’ve been raced with time
To find out of what I’m looking for
I will wake up again, but please let me close my eyes for a while b’cos I feel my body revolt want to sleep
I just only count on you this time, where are we going it doesn’t matter for me as long as you here with me

Where do you take me?
All I can do is just grabbing my hands around your shoulder and lay down
I will continue my works but this time let me spoil my self by looking at you for a cure of this heart
How strong you are, carry me without any complain just walk ahead with a lovely eyes, just want to cheer me that everything is just fine.

Where do you take me?
It doesn’t matter, just follow your steps is great feeling for me and
How peaceful the feeling I’ve got when I lay my head upon your strength and wide shoulder
Hear every beat of your heart just like the song of love, singing of lullaby takes me somewhere, some place far from the rage of life
and I sleep in your warmth surround me
Thank you, for giving me the great adventure along my days
And thank you for loving me the way I am and that is the greatest adventure that you gave me

Where do you take me?
And I will hold tight on you and cover my face upon your shoulder. There is no more worthy sense in this world than loving you with all my heart.

Am I too fast following this rhythm of the life?
Am I too slow catching up this track of the time?
Do I overwhelmed accept all the senses that life give it to me?
Do I capable face all the charm things that time give a shine to me?
No one tell me where do I have to stop in the next turn
Or when I have to run fast in the second turn
Did time made me change, seeing the world out there?
Seems to me the world become bigger and bigger or am I just shrink?
Did I change myself or life makes me change to get along with the rhythm of this time?
Am I ok? Am I alright?
At least, I can feel in my life, just stay there
And I feel it alright

You came to save me when I needed a wide shoulder to cry on
You gave me the cheers when the loneliness came
I never paid attention before when I felt my days of love with someone else,
the one who broke my heart into pieces
You the one who picked up piece by piece the scattered heart I have
For the length time, I never questioned the truth of your mind cos’ I’m too busy with my own sorrow
Still I feel the wounded when my heart hurt and I neglected you around
But you’re so busy cure me nothing in return

Till today 2 years ago
I should asked you to come to my world for the cares that you gave me
I should placed you inside my heart for the feeling that you’ve shown me
I never thought now the feeling inside me struggle want to know, against this sense of yours
For all the time I ain’t knowing you to be

You took me to the wide world out there
Gave me a power not to be drowning too deep in sorrow
For the time I wasted with the one who took my heart
So hard to get myself conscious again
But you the one who bring back my trust to reality
And took me the one above of all
Still I ain’t realize the precious things I’ve got is not far for me

Till today 2 years ago
I should gave a place beneath the heart for you that always shine the love of me
I should looked near me for the ever saviour that standing for me
not looking far for the one who loosing my feeling away
I should realized that day, today 2 years ago for my foolishness, letting go something else who to be my really ever saviour
Forgive me for the time I ain’t knowing you to be
Right there beneath my heart

Here she goes
another savior that entered my life,
I didn’t know who’s being saved here.
I’ve been broken wings
and you came
offering me to seize the air together.

We realized
this was the best way for us
to stayed alive from fading sense,
that’s our own enemy.
You’ve been searching of what life will take you
and I’m welcoming the life that flew me.
And that such a weird combination between us,
but it goes well so far.
We could get more than this,
grow our sense and fill each other.
We’ve been emerging the truth
yet open the hearth

but we don’t have courage
to make ourselves wake up at will.
Our feeling of compassion
cannot heal the ambivalent we’ve got.
We’ve been drifting away since now,
nowhere to point.

It took so long to get you out of my mind,
I always staying away from you
but why I always hanging on to every words you say.
It was a great story that we ever revealed
in our life and you’ve been totally unpredictable.
I couldn’t even take a deep breath to realized
what has been possesed me
and you already there ruined my beyond ordinary life.
You’re the devil along my days,
so easy for me to say fuck off
in the time I give my hand to you to hold on.
And I am the devil for my own skin
I didn’t even know who I am
yet it made me want to scream so loud.

And that’s it,
I’ve been totally lost my control,
it just like yesterday still I remember
the echo when my hand hit the wall.
It didn’t hurt me at all not when you hurt yourself.
‘Coz the impact did made me hell of shock.
Thanks for myself to flinch from you anyway.

I flattered that you offered me a gracious connection.
You were fine and absolutely well off.
I like you a lot when you accomplished
the messy things with your fingertip.
I always be your queen in everything
but you never let me walk with bare foot.
You’ve been so perfect in a whole wax,

in fact
I’m too much perfect ten for you
that you didn’t allow a single mistake
or a spot that stick in my skin.
It was six months of my own battle
and I have already loosing my own personality
for I stayed in my illusive bliss.
Thanks for giving me a place in your dungeon
but I have to move on.
I don’t want to miss a thing,
since I stayed with you all the world was seized up.

I’m so sorry
I was in bad emotion
when I realized you’ve been flown to my river
and then drowning deep
without even caught the bank of my heart.
It wasn’t all my faults at that time,
you gave me a light that I thought I might stay there
just for a while.
You gave me everything that I need
when I broken my heart to somebody else.
I’ve been blinded by my own obsession
to be completely well but I’m being oblivious.
The pain came last
when I felt you put a net of ignorance
and now you found somebody else new
totally sky and earth from me.
Well I guess you deserved to be happy.
I’d like to send regards to her,
it would be love having talk with her some other time.

It was the first march of 1999,
you’ve been attracted me
with your cat eyes and dangerous smile,
And then you turned my world upside down ever since.
My “Moonlight” that what you called me for you to be my “Night”.
I can feel the warm feeling
that surrounding me when you’re around.
We were young
and I realized I’ve been falling in love.
One night you made me out of the blue by the word you said,
“We are still young and there are so many things out there that yet we haven’t seen”,
it was the mighty sentence from you
that awake me from my trance for I’ve been crushed on you.
A short story of love has been entered to my memory’s book

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